Alright… here I am. Computer keyboard in hand and ready to type. I have a world of things racing through my mind at this moment. The Holy Spirit is working double time on me. (Maybe I’m just being honest with what He has been telling me for over 20 years – for the first time).
It’s like I’m a book with a bunch of unfinished chapters in the middle of two bookends (Brad and James). Thanks guys for the love and encouragement.
To reinforce matters Oswald Chambers hit me upside the head today too.
Our Lord’s making of a disciple is supernatural. He does not build on any natural capacity of ours at all. God does not ask us to do the things that are naturally easy for us— He only asks us to do the things that we are perfectly fit to do through His grace, and that is where the cross we must bear will always come. (My Utmost for His Highest, September 25).
So why all of the fear? What is there to be afraid of?
Do you even know what in the world I am talking about?
I’m talking about 1 Peter 1:7 and Romans 10:14-15. I’m talking about what Joel said to me back in Summer of 1985 - after I talked with him about 1 Peter 1:7. He doesn’t remember it I’m sure… but I do. I’m talking about the Holy Spirit speaking to me in the Fall of 1985 in Old Testament class through Romans 10:14-15.
It’s amazing how our minds recall the “God moments” in our lives.
It’s amazing how it takes 20+ years to say yes… for such a time as this.
Thank you for walking your journey so well. I want to be like the one you are like when I grow up.
No doubt about it! God is good— good to good people, good to the good-hearted.
But I nearly missed it,
missed seeing his goodness.
I was looking the other way,
looking up to the people
At the top,
envying the wicked who have it made,
Who have nothing to worry about,
not a care in the whole wide world.
…
When I was beleaguered and bitter,
totally consumed by envy,
I was totally ignorant, a dumb ox
in your very presence.
I’m still in your presence,
but you’ve taken my hand.
You wisely and tenderly lead me,
and then you bless me.
You’re all I want in heaven!
You’re all I want on earth!
When my skin sags and my bones get brittle,
God is rock-firm and faithful.
Look! Those who left you are falling apart!
Deserters, they’ll never be heard from again.
But I’m in the very presence of God—
oh, how refreshing it is!
I’ve made Lord God my home.
God, I’m telling the world what you do! Psalm 73:1-5, 21-28(the Message)