To Rescue Me

Below is a song entitled “To Rescue Me” by The Choir.  If you would like to hear the song press play on the Sonific Player on the right side of this page.

(Hindalong, Daugherty)

When I can’t hold on much longer
To a rope weathered and frayed
When I can’t find hope and I’m losing faith

The Savior reaches in
To still the howling wind
To calm the storm within
To rescue me
To rescue me

When I think I might surrender
To the vengeance of the tide
When I’m lost in sin and I don’t see light

The Savior reaches low
Under the torrid flow
To save my sinking soul
And rescue me

The Savior calls my name
When I feel most ashamed
He comes to take the blame
And rescue me
To rescue me
To rescue me

may I dance with You?

Does the call ever leave you?  Can you do anything in your life to make God’s call go away or be revoked?  These are questions I wrestle with at this time in life.  In agony of soul I wrestle with these questions.  They consume my thoughts and prayers each day.

 I watched “City Slickers” with Billy Crystal the other night.  The thoughts of calling popped out at me when I watched it in the theatre at the time it was showing.  And the thoughts come back to me again while watching it in my living room a few nights ago.

It’s that “One thing” that haunts me.

I’ve been journaling quite a bit about this lately.  I have been thinking about it.  I have been praying about it, etc.  I’m searching to find out what God wants of me.

Today I turn the pages in My Utmost for His Highest by Oswald Chambers and this whole idea of calling charges at me off the page.  The first sentence of the devotional reads, “It is easier to serve or work for God without a vision and without a call, because then you are not bothered by what he requires.”  I’m bothered.  I’m bothered by the fact I’m not living out that vision.  I’m bothered that the vision (the one thing) is not being fulfilled in my life.

I ask now – How can it be fulfilled?  In what capacity can this call be fulfilled?”  My soul is not content these days.  I’m glad of that.  But I still ask, “How?”

Chambers last sentence or so is this, “Never consider whether or not you are of use – but always consider that ‘you are not your own’ (1 Corinthians 6:19).  You are his.”  I find comfort in this.

So I wait.  I wait to find some understanding of this that I wrestle with.  Yesterday I asked the Lord, “Will you dance with me?”  Today I ask, “Lord, may I dance with you?”

will you dance with me?

When was the last time you asked the Lord, “Will you dance with me?” 

Having a relationship with God is supposed to be a very intimate relationship.  He desires for us to love him and him alone.  In the Old Testament we read about David and his love for God.  It was a very passionate love.  David was a man after God’s own heart.

David writes in Psalms 40:4-5, “Blessed are you who give yourselves over to God, turn your backs on the world’s “sure thing,” ignore what the world worships; the world’s a huge stockpile of God-wonders and God-thoughts.  Nothing and no one comes close to you!  I start talking about you, telling what I know, and quickly run out of words.  Neither numbers nor words account for you.” The Message.

I love the lyrics to the song, “You Split the Earth” by Martin Smith of Delirious?.  This is only the last half of the song:

You scorched the earth with fire in Your eyes  One look could burn my soul  You let the fields dance with the wind  Will you dance with me?  And I long to be one with You  And I long to be one with You  Will You dance with me?  I’m yours and yours alone  Whenever You call I will be there for You  Whatever You say I will do anything  You came as a thief You’ve stolen my fear  You’ve captured my heart again  You ask me to run so I run with You  I’ll do anything You want me to  How I long to be one with You  I love to be friends with You

Jacqueline is my dancer.  She spends so much time every week practicing with her company.  When it’s performance time it is a beautiful thing to see.  To see her movements so beautifully carried out along with her company… flowing in unison. I take a lot of credit for my daughter’s ability to dance.  Truth be told I haven’t a rhythmic step in my body… but don’t tell her – she thinks she got it from me!  Moving through life in sync with God is much like a dance. 

Lord, will you dance with me?