Nightswimming deserves a quiet night.
I’m not sure all these people understand.
It’s not like years ago,
The fear of getting caught,
Of recklessness and water.
They cannot see me naked.
These things, they go away,
Replaced by everyday.
I have always liked the song “Nightswimming” by R.E.M. I have not ever known what it meant. So if you know please enlighten me. So why include this verse to a song if I don’t know what it means? I don’t know. But it came to mind none-the-less as I read Randy’s comment to To swim or not to swim when he quoted Brad’s Blog, “we ‘are just called along with The Servant to rely upon God despite the dark or pain or whatever.'” Have you ever noticed that life is nothing but one big blog?
To talk about my situation would be to become vulnerable to someone else. Although there is a tight inner-circle of people in my life who may hear about it. Maybe 2 or 3 at the very most. As the song says, “They cannot see me naked.”
Nightswimming deserves a quiet night. As Brad states, “Notice the direction given to those who walk in the dark; they are told to trust in the Lord in the dark, but they are not then promised light.” It feels as though I am at sea swimming in the dark. The deeper I go in the ocean of His love the darker the night becomes. I’m taking on water drowning and giving Him the life that I have been living… trusting Him with it all. Becoming vulnerable to The Servant.
Tonight I plunge deeper into God’s presence asking Him for mercy. Asking Him for grace. Asking Him to light my way. I know that just because I pray and ask for His help the light switch may not be turned on… but I also know He is with me and there is no fear of getting caught I can and I will be vulnerable to God and look to my Redeemer – for He lives.