I’m wrestling with the thoughts I had from “Take courage…”
There were other examples I could have used instead of the one I used about playing guitar. So now, I wonder “What’s next to do?”
This question comes from today’s Oswald Chambers.
…Put everything in your life afloat upon God, going out to sea on the great swelling tide of His purpose, and your eyes will be opened. If you believe in Jesus, you are not to spend all your time in the calm waters just inside the harbor, full of joy, but always tied to the dock. You have to get out past the harbor into the great depths of God…
When you know that you should do something and you do it, immediately you know more. Examine where you have become sluggish, where you began losing interest spiritually, and you will find that it goes back to a point where you did not do something you knew you should do… My Utmost for His Highest, June 08.
Sometimes I look back at a decision I made to leave one church. I’ve wondered on several occasions if that was the right thing to do. At the time, I thought it was. I believe God even led me to specific passages of Scripture that helped me in that decision. I wonder still… so much turbulent water has gone under the bridge since then that makes me ask the question today: “What’s next to do?”
No matter what I do today – I still go back in my mind and past to determine at what point I de-railed so that I may get back on the tracks and ride out His purpose.
I was reading Mark 6 and 7 this morning. In Mark 6:45-56, he writes about Jesus walking on the water. The disciples were told by Jesus to go ahead of him across the lake. Once they had gotten about halfway across the winds picked up and hindered their progress…
When I was a Youth Pastor, I had a tremendous desire for the youth to learn to worship God with their lives. For them to live everyday throughout each day with an attitude of prayer. I also wanted them to experience worship together when we met. I only knew a few chords on my guitar. So I began working on it.
I would learn whatever song I could. Then I would have a few of the youth sing while I played. After doing this for a couple of years I had built up some confidence in playing my guitar. Well, after I moved to Albuquerque my good friend Jason and partner in ministry asked me to play in a service.
I was a little nervous but I knew I could do it. I’ll never forget that Sunday morning standing in the cafeteria at Rio Rancho High School. We started off with “Come, Now is the Time to Worship.” What happened next was horrible… I drew a blank on the next song I was to play… the song started off with me. I was afraid. I never did recall the song – in both services! It was tough. That was my last time to play in a worship service.
I allowed the wind from the storm to paralyze me. I haven’t played my guitar much since that time.
I can’t tell you how many times God has given me something to do – just for me to end up paralyzed with fear. I don’t know why this is my response to things at times. I’m bold as a lion in my own closet… put me in the arena of life and I’m pretty timid.
Jesus says in Mark 6:50, “Take courage! It is I. Don’t be afraid.”