Finding my voice

Last Sunday I (along with several others) was given an opportunity to speak of God’s love and how his love has filled our lives.

The last time I had the opportunity to speak was a couple of years ago when I was explaining to the youth why I would no longer would be their youth pastor.  Back then I spoke of the deep pain I was experiencing through the tragedy of divorce and now a divided family.  I spoke then of how I had nothing inside to give. 

Through many dark days and nights over the next year or so – God was there.  It was hard to see and hear Him but he was.  There were many nights I prayed, “Don’t let me wake up tomorrow!”  I hated the loneliness and the emptiness my life was experiencing.

All the while, God was there.  He was helping me.  In so many different ways he provided.  During that time, He led me through the mine-field of life.  Through the years prior – God had given me some valuable friends who all helped lay a foundation of faith in my life.  It was through this tough time that all the teaching I had done over the years was put to the test.

Today, I am experiencing growth in my life like never before.  I don’t even know how to communicate the hunger, the excitement, and the thoughts that race through me.  I know the deep well of pain has been replaced with His love and grace.  The past year has been one of the most challenging and growth-filled spiritual times in my life!  And today I can say, “This is the time of my life!” I can’t explain it.  I don’t know where all of this is leading… but I am going to ride the wave!

“In the spiritual realm, God only allows us to have as much of Him as our foundation, or life in Him, will support. If we want a powerful ministry that is Spirit-anointed, our house must be built on the Rock.  So when the storms come (and they will) our house will stand.”  A Cry in the Wilderness, Melody Green, xii.

I recall my friend Joel while speaking of Dean say, “Dean has found his voice.”  I am praying at this time I will find my voice and proclaim Him boldly.

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