Catalyst… I was there!
Catalyst… It’s still bugging me!
I can either run to the Truth and embrace it… or I can run from it. From all indications there is no running from it. Total surrender is the only acceptable response. God is on every street corner. He is in the midst of every conversation since those two powerful days. God was there before I got there. He was waiting. God was in the invitation for me to go. God is here with me today. God is.
This is not about Catalyst.
I have read several blogs from some who have attended Catalyst. I hear their response. I hear how God has dealt with them. But I still struggle. I still cry. I still sit here looking through my notes. What is it I can’t let go of? Why is it God will not let go of me? (Not that I want Him to). But He is always there – He is always here. No matter where I go in my thoughts he is there.
He was there December 1983. He changed my life set me a part for Himself. To lift Him up! To tell His gospel story.
I have the house to myself this morning. I have sat here in silence. Just sitting. I dare not go outside and do anything as I have had bronchitis for the past week. So, I sit… just listening to the silence. When was the last time you sat in total silence? Literally the only thing I can hear is the refrigerator and THAT is about to drive me nuts! God is here.
This is not about me…
In the silence, I have prayed for friends. Friends who are sick. Friends who are serving the Lord at this very moment. Friends who are surrounded by fear. Friends who are full of hope and encouragement. Friends who God is reaching through me. God has been doing some things I didn’t even know about until day before yesterday…. WOW! But today – I’ve just sat here. And so has God. It took me a bit to notice He was here. Oh – I was listening for Him but I had some things to deal with in this silence. In this moment He is here. He is there with you too. It could be today or It could be tomorrow but He is there. Kind of freaky – I know. But it’s His love.
Is it noisy where you sit?
Although I have been sitting here in this silence my mind has been filled with the noise that distracts me so much. Now that I am here… now that He is here… I just want to stay here in this silence. I have found a bit of peace. The noise is gone (even the motor of the refrigerator is silent).
It’s all about God… His Son – Jesus…
Have you told anyone lately? Is the Holy Spirit working through you today? Or is there too much noise? You know He will work through you even through all of the noise… don’t let the noise trick you to think otherwise. Your life is His… let Him use you today… there’s another life waiting for the Truth. They are looking for it. They are on the street corner. They are in the grocery store checkout line. They are at your work. They may even be in your church. They are where you are. Be abandoned to Him. Run… go and tell what He has done for you. Don’t let the moment pass you by. It’s not about Catalyst… it’s not about me… It’s all about Jesus. It’s about setting the captive free.
The world is looking for a revelation
We’re always under their investigation
They look at us to hear we got to say
They can’t see Jesus when we stand in the way
They don’t need no more elevated speeches
We’re keeping Jesus just beyond their reaches
Can’t see the forest for all of the trees
They won’t see Jesus till we fall on our knees
(From, “Lift Him Up”, Petra – Bob Hartman, 1983).
Kara just broke the silence with a very strange txt message: “John McCain is at the Cartersville Airport until 1PM” I had to turn on FOX News and break the silence to find out for sure. It was a scheme of the devil… to get me out into the cool breezy weather. John McCain is in Albuquerque today!! Which is ironic – as I would love to be living in Albuquerque once again!! Thanks for the diversion Kara. 🙂