When I read this verse today I heard George Michael sing, “Faith.” If you are familiar with the song now it’s stuck in your head too. Sorry about that. 🙂
Faith. Hearing and responding in faith, at times, can be a very difficult thing to do. Especially when one is living in long season of silence.
I wonder about Abraham. I wonder about his life and the thought process he went through before he took matters into his own hands. God had told him he would have a son. I presume he waited. I guess he actively engaged at the task of trying to have a baby with his wife. I’m sure he didn’t get tired of that! But, then again, maybe he did. He did end up taking things into his own hands by having sex with someone else.
I still wonder about his thought process. He knew the promise. He knew the Lord. He was a friend of God. Yet, he got tired in the waiting. Did he question his understanding of the promise? Did he begin to doubt? Did he ask God about this decision to sleep with someone else? Obviously he believed he was supposed to have a son. That’s why he stepped outside of the covenant of marriage to have one. (That doesn’t feel or sound right to even type). But that’s exactly what he did. He stepped into sin in order to bring about God’s promise…
I go back to wondering about his thought process that got him there. Had he lost faith? Did he think it was up to him to help God bring about a child? In James 2 we read faith and works go hand and hand. Abraham is even used as an example of faith and works when it comes to his son Isaac. The son that was promised! Yet, before he got to that point he exercised his faith with works outside of the covenant. Outside of the realm of what God had promised. Which brings me back to my wondering about what was going on in Abraham’s life and heart at the time he made his decision to help God along with the promise.
For me, I know I have made decisions in the darkness of silence. Knowing I was supposed to do something, make a move, career change, etc. Many, if not, most of those decisions didn’t work out so well for me. Why? Did I not hear correctly? Or did I not wait?
I think it has more to do about the waiting and trusting the promise God has spoken than anything else.